Update

Well the my world in no longer spinning. Which is very nice. It took almost two weeks after my ER visit. Then I got the flu. Boy was that fun. Then my period did not start. Not get your hopes up. I went to the Doctor on Monday and the answer is NO. So I guess it is till not my time. And just to let you now I had a ultra sound at my appointment to prove that I was not PG. So the results are correct. At this rate I will end up have a baby in Oregon. Which would make my mommy happy.

It looks like James will be having his surgery in January. My parents are hopefully coming down to help me for a few days.

James and I spent Thanksgiving together. This was the first year in four years we could spend the whole day together with out him working. It was nice. But it was also the first year we spend alone. I can't want for Thanksgiving next year. I am going to my parents house and all my brother and sisters will be there. Full house for thanksgiving. This will be my parents first full house in 5 years. And to top it off my grandparents are going to come.

Both of my sisters Amy and Michelle, and my brother Ed all still work at Safeway. Michelle is a JR. in Highschool (boy that makes me feel old) and Timmy is in 4th grade. He just got an A+ in band. He is very happy. That is all he wanted to talk about on the phone. Both of my parent still work at the hospital and on their house. And all doing well.

Still counting down to days till we get to come home. I miss my family and friend very much. But there are somethings that I will miss here as well. The weather. Who wouldn't miss the weather. Sunny and warm year round. I will also miss having 6 malls in under 20 miles. One of the nice things about San Diego is that it you want something you will find it. I hope to go the the zoo before we leave and to go to see world again.

Well I am sitting at work. I am in charge and waiting for my phone to ring. I hope that it doesn't; but I know it will. I am planning on going home and putting up my Christmas tree(or at least sometime on my weekend. I am very happy that it is my Friday. We have had a crazy crazy week at work.

Just under a year

As of the 13th James on has one year left in the Navy. We are moving home a few months early, but that is because of all the vactation time he has saved up. As the days more on the more happy and excited I get about moving back home. James amd I should be coming up in Auguest for at least 10 days. The navy gives you 10 days house hunting leave. So we figured we would use it. We used it when we first got here. But we found a place on the first day and spend the rest together hanging out. It was nice. I hope that we can find a place quickly. James still really wants to purchase a home, but I have he willing to rent for 1 year. I explained to him that we do not have jobs up there. We do not know how much we will make; and that it would be stuid to jump into purchasing a home. So we are going to be looking at renting. Another reason I can not wait to move is that from the last time I was in Oregon several of my friend will have new babies to see. It is crazy. When I went up last time I saw several kids that were walking and talking that I had never seen before. And this time I get to see several more new babies.

ER Visit

On Wednesday, I left work early and headed to the ER. I had been very dizzy and almost fell twice at work in front of my boss. She thought that it would be a good idea to be checked out. Well, good news I do not have an ear infection. All my labs came out normal. The CT scan show that I have a brain and it works. But the second CT scan with contrast showed that I had an inflamed nerve in my head. According to the doctor it comes from being sick for long periods of time. There is no medication that they can give me. It should go away on it's own. So my world is spinning around and around. Things do not quite spinning. And you know what happens when someone spins you - nausea. Oh ya. FUN. It should go away with-in 1-3 weeks.

Lonely and thinking

Well, I have been going through stuff. I have founds some pictures that reminded me of old times. I found this cute pictures on Conner when he was little. I look at the picture of him now... I agree with the email from Amber. I can't believe that he was once so small. As much as I would love to have a baby. I don't know if I really want one. The grow up. They are no longer the little baby, but start getting ideas and be come adults; like us. I also found some picture of my family. For any one who know me I come from a good size household. I am the oldest of five. But I look at how old my brothers and sister are now and it makes me want to cry. Ed is 22, Amy 21, Michelle 16 (Feb she will be 17), and my baby brother Timmy just turned 11. It makes me feel old. It seems just like yesterday I was changing diapers and potty training. Here the thing I have done all the baby stuff expect having to get up in the middle of the night. As much as I want a child I some times feel that my God not letting me have one at this time is his way of trying to give me a chance to do some of the fun things I was never able to do growing up. At the age of 9 I learned to cook and clean. I had a new baby sister, so I learned to change diapers (cloth ones), feed and burp a baby, and start helping take care of my brother and sister. Then when I was 14 Timmy was born. There were a lot of people who thought that I was a teen mom. I had a baby on the hip and a toddler running around calling me mommy. I love my brothers and sisters and would not change any of the time I have spent with them. But some times I wonder what it would have been like not to have all the responsibilities at a young age.

So the more I think about it I wonder if I will ever be able to have a baby. It is really hard sometimes. I sit in a large house all by myself every night and only have a cat to talk with. All my friends are married with children. And even my friends who don't have children have more of a life than me. I feel lonely a lot. I think that is a lot of the reason I can not wait to move back home. I will had least have friends in the same area. Since I supervise at work I am not allowed to be friends outside of work with any one I work with. And any of the friends I had their husbands were stationed other places. The only people who I really talk to one the phone is my mommy and sister Amy. But with my mom's work and still having kids in the house it can be hard at times to talk. Amy well I have a relationship with her voicemail. I haven get so board I have sang songs to her voicemail. And when her team the Colts play I text her the score and anything that she might want to know about the game. Most of the time I don't even know if or when she is even reading them. But at least my cat talks backs. I have even carried a conversation with a tell-a-mark. He was located in CO. He was a student studying science. This was the best job he could find that worked with his school schedule. How sad that I even knew this. He had been dating a girl for over six months. He seemed to really like her. She was getting her RN. So I have now taken up making dishcloths. I will have so many that I will not have to make any for several years. Once I finish with all the yarn I have for that I have a few blankets that I am going to re-cover.

Well I think that I have rambled on way too much. I guess I should go to bed now. I do have to work in the morning. Funny thing I like work. It is the only time I have some one to talk. Poor James is working all the time and a full time student. It doesn't leave much time. I have been trying to be good when he is doing his school work and not bug him. I want him to finish his schooling. But at the same time I would like him to spend more time with me. But hopefully soon. I have even thought about getting another job like at the mall. That way I would have someone around to talk to. I still think about it. It would be better than sitting here talking to my cat.

More Pictures

More pictures.
Thefirst and last one is of the USS Midway.

Another day

Halloween went well. I have several kids come to my door. The first people to come to my door where my neighbors. Yep, the neighbors that had the big party. They made cookies and were coming around to meet all every on the street to say sorry. To find out that they thought that there party got out of control and called the cops on their own party. The cops told them that they would not come. So they started to kick out all of their friends.

Then towards the end of treat-or-treating I opened the blinds so I could see out of my big bay window. I was talking to my sister Amy. Then I saw two kinds come running through my yard. Well I have two big blow-ups in my front yard. They have black strings that tie them to the ground. Well, both of these kids did not see the strings. They hit hard. The grass was moist so not only did they fall the slide. I felt so bad that I hung up on my sister and went outside. I find out it was one of my neighbors friend's kids. Thank goodness my neighbor was with them. The first things that she says is "Did you see that? That is funny as hell." I gave both kids two handle fulls of candy for they efforts to get to my door.